We Bite Each Other | July 8th 2007
I was born into the wrong family, I really, really was.
I absolutely hate, HATE how I’m being treated like a child!! I’m only an “adult” when they/she wants me to, and I’m a child when they don’t want me to do what I want. “Sou, they’re only looking out for you!” Oh shut up! Seriously and honest to God I’m fed up!!!! I can’t bloody breathe anymore!! Everything I do is wrong and everything I say is inappropriate. So if everyone else understands me and they don’t…then what’s wrong with the picture? “Sou, I understand your perspective.” She doesn’t, and she won’t. It breaks my heart because she is supposed to understand my perspective, even if it’s “stupid”.
Don’t let me get started on the hurtful comments. I’m actually surprised I haven’t died from heartache - people actually die from that, right? Should I apologise for not fitting the mold she ever so desperately tries to shape me into? I don’t think so…but then again, I’m always being looked down upon with such judging eyes.
Mama, I hope you understand that I’m just the way I am, I’m not a “bad person”, I’m just not the person you want me to be. I also hope that one day, you’ll really see things from my perspective.
This might sound insanely irritating to those of you who don’t like Mika..(and by this point, I really don’t give a rat’s ass what you think anymore - yes, I won’t let any crap faze me; I get enough of it from my mother, and I don’t certainly need more to pile up), but there’s one song on his album that I feel was written for all of us poor saps who suffer from our parents.
‘Stuck in the Middle’.
I look at you, you look at me, we bite each other.
And with your bitter words you kick me in the gutter.
But my troops are bigger than yours
You’ll never stand my fight.Ours is a family that’s based upon tradition
But with my careless words I tread upon your vision.
Till next time world.
