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We Bite Each Other | July 8th 2007

Sou thought out loud in Personal, Music, Mika

I was born into the wrong family, I really, really was.

I absolutely hate, HATE how I’m being treated like a child!! I’m only an “adult” when they/she wants me to, and I’m a child when they don’t want me to do what I want. “Sou, they’re only looking out for you!” Oh shut up! Seriously and honest to God I’m fed up!!!! I can’t bloody breathe anymore!! Everything I do is wrong and everything I say is inappropriate. So if everyone else understands me and they don’t…then what’s wrong with the picture? “Sou, I understand your perspective.” She doesn’t, and she won’t. It breaks my heart because she is supposed to understand my perspective, even if it’s “stupid”.

Don’t let me get started on the hurtful comments. I’m actually surprised I haven’t died from heartache - people actually die from that, right? Should I apologise for not fitting the mold she ever so desperately tries to shape me into? I don’t think so…but then again, I’m always being looked down upon with such judging eyes.

Mama, I hope you understand that I’m just the way I am, I’m not a “bad person”, I’m just not the person you want me to be. I also hope that one day, you’ll really see things from my perspective.

This might sound insanely irritating to those of you who don’t like Mika..(and by this point, I really don’t give a rat’s ass what you think anymore - yes, I won’t let any crap faze me; I get enough of it from my mother, and I don’t certainly need more to pile up), but there’s one song on his album that I feel was written for all of us poor saps who suffer from our parents.

‘Stuck in the Middle’.

I look at you, you look at me, we bite each other.
And with your bitter words you kick me in the gutter.
But my troops are bigger than yours
You’ll never stand my fight.

Ours is a family that’s based upon tradition
But with my careless words I tread upon your vision.

Till next time world.

Your Loud Thoughts

3baid | July 8th, 2007

I know how parents can be frustrating and restrictive, but they’ll eventually accept these changes. Be patient, argue rationally and remain calm (if possible) during confrontations. Inshallah, things will change for the better. Good luck.

commenter | July 8th, 2007

sweetheart I’m like above 21 they still tell me not to be late/why was I late, and I’m a DUDE…I just let it go.. It’s nice to stay young :> We all go through the Marissa Cooper thing, parents should start recognizing..

Moey | July 8th, 2007

I’m not gonna comment…

OpeRon® | July 8th, 2007

I totally can know what you’re going through .. I just bought spent my whole salary on a new headphones (YES, my salary is that bad), & I picked up a FIGHT

OpeRon® | July 8th, 2007

I totally can know what you’re going through .. I just bought spent my whole salary on a new headphones (YES, my salary is that bad), & I picked up a FIGHT with mum cos I wanted to reimburse them from MY OWN SAVINGS with her!!

I mean, Com’On .. I do not need that B.S begad, She’s is ill we kol 7aga, but khalas b2a, I hate even being around at home, she is yelling all the time on everytime ’sigh’ ..
The song is great ..

Lilly | July 8th, 2007

When I read your post it sounded like I’m reading my own diary, I know what you going through and I DO KNOW how painful it can be, I hope someday they would understand us and be willing to enter our own world

Pinky | July 9th, 2007

I know what u feel so, but am sure by time they will just accept u the way u are, other than askin u to b wt they want u to..calm down sweetie its gonna b fine(K) one day you’ll have ur own universe tht no one will b allowed in, and thats when ull b just like a butterfly going everywhere doinh wtever she dreamt of:) tomorrow is a new day:)

samia-chan | July 9th, 2007

hmmm,i wont say a thing :s just TYPICAL of parents!
but sometimes i wonder if i had kids,will i treat my children like my parents treated me?

Almond | July 9th, 2007

I understand what you mean, word for word. That dear Sou was my life too. You just have to stick it out for now and one day something better or an opportunity will come along. I don’t live that way anymore. You know where i am now. And I’m happy. :D Something will change and it will get better. I know so. :)

Juka | July 10th, 2007

Song always reminds me of you… have no words of encouragement or condolence… sorry though.

Nomad | July 10th, 2007

well kiddo its a fact of life, parents give their children hell…
but you just can’t live w/o them. i guess we just have to look past the flaws and move on.

Yin | July 10th, 2007

I totally get where you’re coming from, sweetie. But you know what’s weird is… you’ll get closer to your mom when it comes to thinking patterns. At least, that’s what I’ve experienced and saw from people around me. I was a really pissed of adolescent and an even more rebellious 21 yo.. But now, some years later, I’m suddenly closer than ever to my parents. So I guess I’m trying to say it will all get better… everyone changes bit by bit.. and one day you wake up, realizing you have the best family in the world.

Take care dear Sou!

Ravine | July 12th, 2007

Story of my life. 3ady, mothers will not be mothers if they don’t criticize you. And yes, as annoying as this phrase sounds :” they’re doing it for your own good ” ..it’s true. It’s not about how old you are either because they will still be criticizing you until you have 21 yr olds of your own and even though I get into ridiculous yet intense arguments with my mother, I believe in my heart that she does it because she cares even if I feel like she doesn’t really understand me (which is surprising because I lived with her for 21 friggin’ yrs) despite the fact that we’re very much alike. O and btw , as scary as it sounds, in about 20 yrs , you’ll be, well.. not an exact spitting image of your mother, but you’ll be more similar to her than you’d like right now.It’s inherent and inevitable. C’est la vie ;)

Mak | July 15th, 2007

Would it bother you if I say this post made me laugh?? It just makes me see how we all have the same parents. What’s really scary is that they probably had the same problems with their parents…. which means our kids would probably say the same things about us…… lol…. Maybe it’s genetic and no matter how hard parents try not to end up like their parents, they fail.

Mak | July 15th, 2007

Happy b’day btw…. a little bit late. Independence Day.

Abed Hamdan | July 16th, 2007

Sou

I just came to say that I missed you! I really did! and I missed your sense of humor :)

I hope you’re doing fine..tamneena 3annek :)

Abed Hamdan | July 16th, 2007

and happy belated birthday :(

Sarah | July 16th, 2007

Hey there Sou, I am not going to tell you that I feel for you or that I have been in your shoes for more than a couple of times. I would just say in life it is extremely rare to find someone who understands I mean really understands. I guess with parents the notion that deep inside they care is the only thing that matters. Take good care of yourself and breahte deep. Hoping that someday they will actually try to chanel thier attention appropraitely.. Take care beautiful sou and be WELL

Swair | July 17th, 2007

*hugs u so tight* it’ll all turn out for the best..

Moey | July 18th, 2007

where r u :(

Moey | July 18th, 2007

FAINEEEEEEK

Almond | July 18th, 2007

Feeling any better these days hun? We misss youuuuuuu!

Q8 Diviner | July 20th, 2007

I must be late in replaying to this, but i think i have to tell you this.

if i had a kid one day, i think i would be so protective in a way that make them really unhappy about it,
and am sure if you had a baby and you love him/her so much, you will do the same

i’ve been in your shoes once, still i am, was confused, yet rebellian, want life my way

i really gave them hard time

but, now, they gave up, and i kinda compromise, you know

hold the stick from the middle ,,,

Good luck !

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