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Untitled… | February 1st 2006

Sou thought out loud in Blog, Friends, Fun, Crazy

This past week has been absolute shit (excuse my French). I have never cried so much in my life! You’re probably thinking, oh here we go again with the depression shit but I’m serious, my life has never been as hard as it is now. Exaggerating? I know I’m not.

GAH!! I’m so bloody frustrated! “Why?!” is the only question I’m asking myself. Just for the record, this isn’t about a guy…the bastard can go and screw himself for all I care! Shocked? “Oh! But Sou doesn’t use that kind of language!” Oh please…

Ok, maybe she’s right, maybe I do have an attitude problem…My mother, you see, has been on my case for nearly 5 months…”Sou, your attitude…” Sou this, and Sou that…I can’t stand the naggining anymore, I seriously feel like exploding. And so what if I’ve got an attitude? I’m human, I’m not expected to smile and laugh 24/7 I’m bound to feel different at some point!!!

I’m eating a lot…not a good sign.

I had a very complex conversation with a friend of mine a couple of days ago…and one question he asked me has been revolving in my head ever since. I don’t really know how to answer. I probably can’t find an answer because I’m a weak idiot who doesn’t know how to back up her own statements anyways *sigh*

“In a heartbeat.” I sure as hell hope so…

OH! OH! I made a pact! I made a pact! Won’t tell you what it’s about though! It’s a secret! “If it’s a secret Sou, why are you taunting us?” Cause I want to! BWAHAHAHAHAHA! Fine, fine the pact is….yeah, no I won’t tell :X hehe…I’m feeling slightly better actually; writing is my therapy, I guess.

I received an email the other day and it definately put a smile on my face!

Love your list of things to do before you die.

I’m 55, an American citizen, from new jersey, at this moment in Austin Texas about to give a speech tomorrow to a group of insurance agents.

What an amazing thing that people so disconnected by age and geography and all can talk to each other.

Hope you have a fabulous day, week, life.

It’s nice receiving an email out of the blue like that…judging that I don’t usually receive emails out of the blue!

JaCkie made me the coolest header and display picture ever! What do you think (don’t you just envy me?!) ;) hehehe..

Thought of the day: Am I the only one who thinks that a lot of super heros look like Superman? I mean the whole chizzled look and dimpled chin…

Time to sign off. Till next time World!

Ta ta for now :*

Your Loud Thoughts

UzF | February 2nd, 2006

Oh sou.. reading what you wrote made me feel good and bad at the same time. Good to have heard from you and bad because of what you’re experiencing (is that a word? :p)
Even though an “it will get better” won’t do that much to it but i give you one ;)

Your new graphics are cool. No question about it when Jackie has to do with it hehe
ok take it easy friend and cya around :)

Sarah | February 3rd, 2006

Well Sou,
1st: We all bound to feel like shit some times and do not excuse my French ;) Go ahead girl, get it all out on anything. Read, write draw I once spend an entire hour drawing evil shapes with my pencil and I ended up feeling relieved but I was not so happy with what I drew. But I felt better. Got my point.
2nd: your header is super cool *green with envy*
I have been going in circle trying to change mine and I do not know how. Can you aaa give me clues *blushes and hides face in hand…*
3rd: C’mon girl I really like how you express your self and I am sure there are a lot of people out there think you are super cool “a stadium like echo howling “Sou, Sou�

Take girl gal and be good or better do not be

Dr.Lost | February 3rd, 2006

hope u start feelin better this week.. dunno what 2 say ;(

Sedna | February 3rd, 2006

Sou, take it from me. It’s not an attitude problem…people have perception problems!!

The Stallion | February 5th, 2006

Hun, you maintaine that atitude and don’t you think of changing just cause someone tells you to! The atitude is what makes you unique and what makes you the preson you are!

Live life the way you want to and live it to the fullest!

Fractal00 | February 5th, 2006

Hi Sou… i feel you.. I am facing the same problem with my parents and i ahave graduated university and started working .. This wont stop, it is always gonna be why aren’t you smiling, or this or that. My solution is that everytime i hear it i reply .. this is me, this is how i like to be, and if u dun like it then sorry but i can’t change.

As for the conversation with your friend, your not weak .. your just a bit lost, you need to focus and really come up with an answer.

The new header and pic look nice by the way … Fringe *ehem* Fringe

Bare Feet | February 6th, 2006

Man…. Hunibun.. cheer up.. i hate to see you so sad.. your allowed to feel however you wanna feel.. and express it in anyway you want.. dont let other peoples none sense get to you.. there are alot of people who like SOU for everything she is.. and wouldn’t want her to add any fakeness in smiling, laughing or even crying when shes doesnt truely feel it..
STAY SOU, the one we love.. and do whatever you want for the time.. but make sure you come back as the cutie Sou, im used to chitchatting with.. Miss you lots too.. Katkoota..

ByTheWay.. I love the new Look.. thanks to Jacqui.. Its beautiful and it suits you..

stercus_accidit | February 8th, 2006

Your things to do before you die list is awesome, love it =D

SwAiR | February 8th, 2006

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Sou | February 14th, 2006

Uzf: I’m starting to feel better, thanks! :)

Yeah, JaCkie absolutley rocks! ;)

Sarah: Begad, begad…inti amazing! Wallahi! I mean, you made me smile and ya3ni enti medala3ani zeyada! Thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!

And 7ashoflek mawdoo3 el header ;)

Dr. Lost: Thank you :)

Sedna: Thing about perceptions is that you can’t easily change’em :/

Stallion: I’m trying to come to a compromise. And i guess I’m doing it for myself! I mean, a “better” attitude means “better treatment, right? :)

Fractal: I can’t really answer back like that :/

And i thought about it, but came up with a jumbled answer; oh well!

Thanks! Yeah, the fringe! LOL!

Bare Feet: Ya3ni ba3d kalamek who wouldn’t feel all super and cheerful? :)

Thank you :* :*

Stercus: Thanks! ;)

SwAiR: :* :*

mama035 | February 14th, 2006

Well here’s a note out of the blue from the Netherlands! It’s so nice to take a tour aroud the world by reading blogs from all over the world. I whish you a very nice valentinesday!
Dutch greetzzzz from Susan

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