Untitled… | February 1st 2006
This past week has been absolute shit (excuse my French). I have never cried so much in my life! You’re probably thinking, oh here we go again with the depression shit but I’m serious, my life has never been as hard as it is now. Exaggerating? I know I’m not.
GAH!! I’m so bloody frustrated! “Why?!” is the only question I’m asking myself. Just for the record, this isn’t about a guy…the bastard can go and screw himself for all I care! Shocked? “Oh! But Sou doesn’t use that kind of language!” Oh please…
Ok, maybe she’s right, maybe I do have an attitude problem…My mother, you see, has been on my case for nearly 5 months…”Sou, your attitude…” Sou this, and Sou that…I can’t stand the naggining anymore, I seriously feel like exploding. And so what if I’ve got an attitude? I’m human, I’m not expected to smile and laugh 24/7 I’m bound to feel different at some point!!!
I’m eating a lot…not a good sign.
I had a very complex conversation with a friend of mine a couple of days ago…and one question he asked me has been revolving in my head ever since. I don’t really know how to answer. I probably can’t find an answer because I’m a weak idiot who doesn’t know how to back up her own statements anyways *sigh*
“In a heartbeat.” I sure as hell hope so…
OH! OH! I made a pact! I made a pact! Won’t tell you what it’s about though! It’s a secret! “If it’s a secret Sou, why are you taunting us?” Cause I want to! BWAHAHAHAHAHA! Fine, fine the pact is….yeah, no I won’t tell :X hehe…I’m feeling slightly better actually; writing is my therapy, I guess.
I received an email the other day and it definately put a smile on my face!
Love your list of things to do before you die.
I’m 55, an American citizen, from new jersey, at this moment in Austin Texas about to give a speech tomorrow to a group of insurance agents.
What an amazing thing that people so disconnected by age and geography and all can talk to each other.
Hope you have a fabulous day, week, life.
It’s nice receiving an email out of the blue like that…judging that I don’t usually receive emails out of the blue!
JaCkie made me the coolest header and display picture ever! What do you think (don’t you just envy me?!) ;) hehehe..
Thought of the day: Am I the only one who thinks that a lot of super heros look like Superman? I mean the whole chizzled look and dimpled chin…
Time to sign off. Till next time World!
Ta ta for now :*
