Stars, When You Shine…
February 8th 2007 by Sou in Music, Personal, YouTubeI’ll be totally honest with everyone reading this, especially to those of you who commented on my previous post. I am so shocked of the reaction the post conjured. I seriously wasn’t expecting anything, and now, I’m so grateful that I’ve got people who care so much for me. Was I blind or was I blind?! To think that I thought I was all alone, without a soul in the world who cared. Then I read your comments, and honest to God, tears welled up in my eyes.
I was blinded by rage and emotions, I just wrote what I felt - which I should do, but the saying “some things are better left unsaid” crossed my mind. However, I won’t take back what I said, I’m sticking to my guns and I’m turning over a new leaf, a sturdier leaf, one that won’t collapse the next time a storm blows around.
“but in the cleaning up pls do be selective as not to lose good friends who weren’t given a fair chance”
The above was said by askandarani75, he’s right, very right as a matter of fact. When I made my “decision”, I was planning on hacking off every friend out of my life. It’s a good thing I’ve taken a few days to contemplate and reassess things, or I seriously would’ve done a few things I would’ve regretted. I now know who my “good friends” are and who I should “hack off”. A beautiful awakening.
I realised that I’m not the only, first and certainly not the last who will feel as if they’re being smothered underneath all the pressure and this twisted version of loneliness. We all have our ups and downs and we all have our ways to deal with it, I found my way, a firm yet calm manner. I will definitely not continue being the Sou everyone knew, but like I said, I will enhance who I am and tweak myself up. I am here for those who want me in their lives, if you choose otherwise, I will not come knocking on your door. I’ve done enough “erasing and rewinding” when it came to friends, people who I truly cared for, who unfortunately didn’t care for me.
This is the first time I’ve talked about it publicly…I don’t feel any regret nor sorrow that M is my “former” best friend. It’s almost been a year since we stopped talking and I’ve moved on since day one, deep down inside I know it was the right decision. I don’t hold any grudges towards her, our friendship was good while it lasted, but people change. Who knows, maybe Karma will go gentle on her…maybe.
Once again, to all of you who stood by me, thank you.
Even though I prefer Michael Bublé’s verison, ‘Feeling Good’ never sounded better…Muse, hit it!
anytime sweety :)
I’m thankful for this post. I’m glad you won’t hack off your friends!
:)
That’s my Sou:D am so happy your feeling better now, you deserve the best, and am sure the best will come to u, the rage you got out was totally ur right to do…
Maybe if you didnt u wudnt have been better now, or u might not have knwn that there’s loaaaaadsss of people who care for u and really want to be here for u:)
Go on Sou..ur a wonderful person and whoever lost u they really lost much!! mwah welcome back;)
Well, As I like to put it, when you are up you will go down, but you are down, your only way is up. I guess you know what you have to do… And as a matter of fact I think I still have a few remaining membership cards for the “crappy-mood-after-a-shitty-event-in-my-personal-life club. Join the experience :-)
Oh, one last thing, dont try to change. That is useless. AS Audioslave is saying “BE Yourself…” (very musical approach of a problem dont you think? )
Moey: :)
Ling: Would’ve been brutal sight, don’t you think? haha…
Pinky: You’re right, if I didn’t go through, I would never have known. Thank you so much for your support :)
Bob-i-Licious: But being myself got me nowhere but down Bob, so I guess the only way “up” is by changing. I’m positive that time will unveil what will happen. Who knows? :)
Plus, taking musical approaches….welcome to the story of my life; I seem to have a song for most occasions - seriously. ;)
I missed your blog… mmm I’m browsing the archives, seeing what I missed. How oh HOW did you tame wordpress?:shock:
good to know you feel better :)
I have a 2pac song for every occasion :P
SouSou, It is ok sweets.. we all have our down time when we tend to self-destruct .. it just happened to you when you were in front of the post editor page .. which happened to me a lot too ..
3la fekra b2a, Only in such situations that you know who your friends are .. You will find people you would the least expect to be genuine friends.. and others who would be out of question .. to be so fake and just a crust with ugly landscape underneath
This is the beautiful awakening , the beauty of contradiction, of laughter & tears .. of elation & devastation.. of life!
We’re always here for you, Sou .. not cos you have a fantabulous blog, not cos your english is so good, not for anything but just cos you’re Sou we know .. that unique personna which however tried to be change, would stand to be the creme de la creme!
Cheer up sweety, You’re never alone as long as you’re good inside!
& since I am so accustomed in checking out the songs after writing the comment on the post.. “short term memory problem” .. the song is GREAT, I love the electric bridge & the vocals
The black scenery shows a huge contradiction
The flying petals gives an excellent effect too
& not to mention the Gothic make up , cos I love everything that’s dark & Gothic “u know that”…
I do have a little bit of a problem in understanding the people climbing the wall in the background though .. bs I will find an interpretation .. dun worry :)
I am determined to beat Juka & Jacqui in your stalkers list .. 3shan keda maynf3sh b2a !
they get to comment first & be on the top of the stalkers list.. and No, I am a die hard kind of guy .. I won’t give in! ;)
muse are awesome! i first knew them from “dead star”, liked them from that day on ;)
Sedna: Wordpress is hosted on the server I’m hosted on. So i get to tweak the living daylights out of it! hehe
TAT: Was never a 2Pac loving gal ;p hehe El nas azwa2 though! hehe
Operon: I’m so glad I have a friend like you. You’re always there, always.
Glad you liked the song, I knew you’d know why I chose it :) But the faces in the clip scared me senseless begad :|
Xahouor: I like Starlight, good song! I’ve got a few more that I like too. I actually remember watching this video [Feeling Good] a while back - a long while - and I liked it, well, except for the freaky faces. :shock:
lol they all say that but after me they 2pac converts >.>
Wordpress is hosted wha—? Explain in English please :P
So be ot then. But be careful, that path is long and dangerous. May the force be with you.
Sedna: Basically, I have my own domain, right? My domain is hosted on a server. The version of Wordpress I’m using is hosted on that server. English tani? :)
Bob-i-Licious: Very Star Wars of you Bob! haha
Just be who you are and not who you think you need to be.