Aloha 2007 | December 31st 2006
Happy Eid and Happy New Year.
I hope that 2007 brings you love, peace of mind, health, wealth and prosperity. I hope that each and every one of you finds what they are looking for in life. There is nothing that feels more satisfying than finding your true calling.
2006 for me? Hmm…well I’ve made new friends, traveled to Cairo, after being away for three years, and realised that there’s a world out there different to that in my ‘head’. I’ve encountered people who were willing to do anything to watch me fall and I’ve also encountered people who did everything in their power to watch me grow and realise my true potential - to them I will forever be grateful.
I’m two decades old now and five years shy from being a quarter of a century. Wow, how time flies by! I remember my tenth birthday and how I made it a point to look ‘lady like’, a turquoise skirt and a green floral patterned shirt were considered ‘lady like’, haha, the naïvity. It’s strange now, but all of a sudden, I remember everything from that day very vividly. That was ten years, five months and 27 days ago. Time really has flown by.
Nobody gets everything they truly want and what they truly long for from the core of their heart - that I established years ago, but what I’ve added to this fact in 2006, is that sometimes the hardest thing to do and the right thing to do are one and the same. What I’ve learned from this? That one should stand up tall, dust themselves off and walk the path ahead of them; who knows, maybe the thing that you ‘really’ want isn’t in fact what you ‘really’ need. I’m aiming on practicing what I preach and I am going to move on to greener pastures.
I have come into terms with the unhappy events of 2006, they toughened my skin.
What am I hoping for in 2007?
Well, basically, it’s what everyone wishes for..health, prosperity, love…the whole nine yards. Thing is, I don’t feel that it’s enough, call me selfish, but hey, there comes a point in our life when being selfish is a good thing.
I want to be less emotional in 2007, I don’t want the way I feel affect my decisions. A ‘tougher me’ is needed, nobody likes a pushover, and this little girl isn’t going to be a door mat any longer.
I’ve decided that making my art a priority is a good idea; art takes my mind off the things that get me frustrated or helpless. I take refuge in my art.
I hope things between my mother and I get better in 2007. The arguments we get into kill me, I hate arguing with her. I hope I can show her that I’m not a little girl, that I’m capable of taking my own decisions, that I can look out for myself and that she doesn’t have to be ‘over the top’ protective of me.
I want to be less distant in 2007. There are moments in my life when all I want to do is cut off relations with everyone I know and disappear; I don’t want to talk to my really close friends and all I want to do is stare into the distance. Does it bring me peace of mind? Certainly not. If anything, more thoughts arise and I feel like ripping my hair out of their roots. BEING LESS DISTANT will help me become a better person.
I will stop limiting myself to what surrounds me.
By the end of 2007, I want to reflect on personal achievements, I want to make something of myself. I remember a time when I had a five year plan; now I have no idea what I’ve got planned for tomorrow - the disorganization is killing me. 2007 will be a year of change.
May 2007 be the year we find our true calling.
God bless.
“Oh my life is changing everyday,
Every possible way.”
To those of you wondering, The Muscles are off on holiday and will be back in a few days!
Till next time world.
Ta ta for now :*